Tomorrow is my little guy’s last day of school. I’m happy that I’ll have more time to spend with him, and we already have lots of plans, but I hope this crazy weather we’ve been having will cooperate. For the last three days, I was completely out of it with one of the worst migraines I’ve had in a very long time. It’s rare now that the pain will last more than 24 hours, but this time it did, and even today I’m not quite feeling right.
This weather can’t make up its mind here, but I know we’re lucky in Michigan. My prayers have been roaming all over the place for those who have it much worse than we do. The good news is that I believe I’ve found another personal migraine trigger. I know that might not sound like great news, but it is because I can fight back when I know what’s causing the pain. It seems allergies do play a role for me. I’ve never thought it affected me before, but this allergy season is one of the worse in a very long time. Coincidentally, I believe that’s part of what brought on my most recent headache. It rained for weeks. We had no spring, and now it’s horribly hot and humid. Hopefully this weather will level out, or my newly planted flower beds will all die because I won’t be able to take care of them. I went outside for five minutes late this morning and could feel the headache coming back. It stinks that I can’t enjoy summer like a normal person, and I hope my son and I will get to at least some of our summer plans without my “issue” becoming too much of an issue. I had to miss his baseball game last night because of this recent headache, and I had to have some good friends bring him home from school.
I’m sending a healing blessing out there to all those who suffer with true migraine headaches. Those who’ve never had one can’t truly appreciate what I mean by that, but those in the know will indeed know. My worse migraines feel like some kind of crazed animal is trying to break out of my skull. I can’t lay down because that makes the pain worse. Sometimes I try water therapy, only sometimes to realize I can’t function and I’m alone in a bathtub. Other times, my brain just can’t function like it should. Like yesterday, I thought in my head that I had called my friend to pick up my son and had gotten her voicemail. Then, I wasn’t sure if I had actually gotten her voicemail or if she said she wasn’t going to be there after school. In my head, several scenarios could have happened, and I wasn’t sure which one actually did happen. Luckily, my husband called me and realized the state I was in, and he called our friends. It turns out that I never even called my friend. My phone showed no outgoing calls. I sorta completely lost my mind yesterday, but that’s part of what happens with these headaches. The pain is so severe that it leaves an after affect than can last days after the pain is finally gone. It’s like being in a fog where things move in slow motion, and, if I don’t move in slow motion, the pain will come rushing back.
For me, the weather is a big part of my challenge. Michigan is probably one of the worst possible places for me to live, but my family is here, and I won’t leave. So, I have to learn to live with that challenge, but it also means that sometimes I will fail those who depend on me, and that’s the part that sucks the most. Knowing I’ve failed someone is hard, but we all do the best we can, right?
Okay, so schools out and we’re all hoping for less crazy weather! If we all put it out there, we might make something good happen! 🙂
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