Learn more about Re …
Thank you for wanting to know more about me. I’m a lot like you – a soul on a journey. My husband and I created Angel Messenger as a way to help others learn how to connect with the Divine and to discover their own spiritual journey.
My own journey has been a long one and has taken me on a winding road through the challenges of a chronic form of PTSD and a decade long illness dealing with chronic nerve and muscle pain. It was quite a journey with all kinds of doctors, specialists, integrative, alternative and herbal practitioners, but my pain is now so much better. I’m not completely healed, but I’ve found a space for healing grace. (You can find an update on my illness below.)
I’ve gone so deep inside myself, inside the spiral of finding ME, and the person I found there was so badly hurt and ashamed … it’s no wonder I carried this pain. I have done quite a lot to heal myself. I’ve learned a great deal about nutrition, the human body, life, pain, Truth, Faith, reality, spirituality, what my family did to me … and didn’t do. This world has so much pain, and it just keeps getting passed on. Someone has to be strong enough to both bear it and stop it.
Several years ago, I asked myself a question, “If the wound is where the light enters (when we ascend), what if the Light is where the wound enters we descend (when we are born into this world)?
For most of my life I believed that I was descended from two powerful Shamanic cultures. As a young child I was told that we had Native American ancestors (Chippewa/Sioux) and that those ancestors would likely have drowned me or burned me, considering me evil because my jet black hair turned paper white by the time I was two. Supposedly this was something that meant the child was possessed by a demon. So, for most of my life I believed this about myself and avoided anything Native American, fearing what they would see in me or do to me.
Then I started to realize that it was actually interesting that I was descended from two Shamanic races (adding in Romani Gypsy) both on my maternal grandmother’s side. I was actually drawn to Shamanic concepts long before I learned this information. I do believe our souls remember, and I was just naturally drawn to this information (likely with spiritual help). 😉 Let’s not forget the importance of the fact that none of us walk this road alone.
I learned to draw on the strengths of my ancestors, especially what I began to know as my Sioux Grandmothers and my Gypsy Great-Grandmother who I did know in this life, though she did not teach me anything while alive. Once I was in a place where my relationship to my Native ancestors felt really strong, I was hit with the information that I am not descended from Native Americans. That information was incorrect, but why was I given that information in the first place? Why was I allowed to believe that about myself? Why was I only allowed to believe I had Native ancestry when it made be afraid?
This really broke my heart, but then I heard my Sioux Grandmothers and knew my connection with them was real. Blood or not, they are mine and I am theirs! The adopted me. While I know some Native Americans will find what I’m saying here upsetting, this is my Truth, and I will no longer be silent about what is TRUE.
Still, I have been apprehensive of embracing this energy publicly … I tell myself it’s because I am worried how those cultures will react to someone who technically is an outsider, though it may be my own sense of generational trauma still lingering a bit. It’s just …
I do see why people get upset about cultural appropriation. It does make me upset to see people acting like “gypsies” rip people off or are only cool for their “Bohemian style”, especially when those same people have no clue how many Romani were murdered in Nazi death camps or how horribly they are still treated in parts of the world today.
However, even before I learned that I am not Native American, I believed on a very deep level there is a reason that society is being drawn to Shamanic cultures. On the surface, they might call it “New Age”, or maybe they are only subconsciously aware of the uniqueness or some superficial idea of the Truth … but, I think it’s really about the desire of the collective universal soul wanting to become enlightened. Maybe humanity is simply being drawn to what their souls know deep down is True … even if they only understand it on a less conscious level.
Imagine what could happen if humanity could become conscious of that desire though. I believe that now is the time for those ancient teachers to rise and teach their forgotten knowledge. There is great wisdom among the Shamanic races that humanity needs to remember, and now is the time to remember. There will also be challenges. Any time light rises, darkness will try to fight it. It must be like the law of gravity or something – happens to me every time.
I cannot watch or listen to a story about Nazis without getting upset, and I’m painfully aware white people have committed unforgivable crimes against Native Americans. Learning that history that we were not taught in school made me sick and angry. However, those white people are likely not the same people who are white today, and I wonder how many people who are white today were once Native. A soul must learn! There are still shadows of hatred and ignorance that replay throughout history and in every generation. But, I also feel a deep down knowing that now is the time for us all to remember all the parts of ourselves, and we are going to need the help of those who currently stand in the wisdom of the Creator.
As I mentioned, please also consider how many “white people” have had past lives in a Shamanic race or are descended from at least one now? How many people have white skin and blonde hair, yet have Native American blood? We can’t tell just by looking at each other who we are anymore, and we were never meant to. Remember the old saying that, “We cannot judge a book by its cover.”
Maybe our Creator separated the races in the beginning until the time when we would be grown enough to truly come together and “see” each other as the one race we are.
There are reasons more can sympathize and empathize with the pain of others; we have been others. We have lived so many times … maybe as men and women, to find all the parts of ourselves and to bring balance within our own selves. This is part of our own individual enlightenment. Those who cannot sympathize or empathize may be those who still have great pain or karmic debt.
If my family’s generational trauma can hurt me, then it should also be able to help. Just because my current blood is not Native American, why can I not call upon my ancestors? Just because I was never taught about Romani beliefs, is there anything wrong with finding my own eclectic path? If the path of the wound can hurt us, that same path should also be where light can be found.
I am still a bit limited in what I can do, but I’m not going to just sit around and wait for things to get better. Both Gaia and her inhabitants need help. Sometimes I do feel like it will never be enough to make a difference, but I keep reminding myself of the Starfish Story …
A boy was walking along the beach where thousands of starfish had washed ashore, and he was picking them up one by one and tossing them back into the sea. A man walks up and asks the boy why he bothers with his task as there is no way he can possibly make a difference as there were so many washed ashore. The boy answered by bending down, picking up another starfish and tossing it into the sea. He looked at the man and said, “… made a difference for that one.”
I do not offer public readings anymore, but my spiritual guidance is like a constant filter most days. It’s often too much. Lately, I’ve been hearing the words “edge of glory” or just “glory”. At first, I thought it was a song. I Googled the words and found an actual song called Edge of Glory by Lady Gaga, but it didn’t feel like quite right. I felt like I was missing something, and that kind of “glory” is just not interesting to me because I am NOT interested in fame. I would be perfectly happy living in a secluded cabin in the woods (by a lake, of course … where it never snows). 🙂
Then I just happened to see that there is a different definition in the Bible where “Glory” seems more like a diamond with mesmerizing facets. It can carry a heavy significance, but it is considered LIGHT personified. It is palpable, maybe even visible; it is meant to be seen. It is DIVINITY. “GLORY to GOD in the HIGHEST!” Yeah … that is a less materialistic definition that bothers me less. I’m always praying about calling the Sanctuary of Heaven to Earth, so maybe I’m doing something right …
My life is far from perfect, but life doesn’t have to be perfect to be good.
My mission is to balance my own energy enough so that I can create on the good days. I just want to begin creating little specks of light where I can, and maybe a few of those specks will shine bright enough to ripple out and touch the heart of another.
I work on creative and Charity Projects. My biggest project lately has been adding physical products to our online store in order to raise more money for those worthy projects, and we do giveaways to help lift up others. My hope is that the store will grow enough to also help support my family and my projects.
Recently, I’ve also begun working with a few students. (This is not something you can sign up for.) These are students that I have been guided to work with, and I do have a feeling about where this will lead, though for now I am just focusing on the present.
Thank you for reading about me. We are all souls on a journey.
Wishing You All Heavenly Blessings,
Re (Rev. Sheri)
I recently discovered that I am descended from Native Americans, that I was originally correct. My family member who told me that I was not was mistaken. I don’t know why my family cannot determine what is true, so I’m just going to leave that alone. Some of them also have gifts like mine, even though I was made to feel like an outcast because of my own gifts.
Anyway, some days I do feel like I am getting stronger. I’ve been working with a physical therapist and do feel, for the first time in a long time, that my body is getting stronger. I’m also going back to my chiropractor now for my shoulders and neck. I have hope.
However, before my hysterectomy, I wasn’t having many migraines because of the treatments we were using. Now, I can’t use those treatments due to the surgery, and I’m having bad headaches that usually lead to migraines about twice a week. These migraine episodes can really set me back physically, so it keeps feeling like I have to start over and over again, which is not what I want to do. (The chiropractic care also helps, and I hope to afford a massage soon.)
I often receive guidance during these migraine events, so I’m not sure that I should shut them down. However, I’m also not sure who I should give this guidance to. For now, I’ve just been working with the cycles of the moon to bring positive blessings to our world, and to change anything negative I see. <3
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