Sometimes it’s really hard to be positive, especially when this world has so many negative things that can be thrown onto our path. My husband will be losing his job on December 28th, and we will be losing our health insurance and more than half our income. This is a scary time for our family, but I have to say we’ve been through worse and have come out the other side happier and stronger.
We’ve known about this for about a month but were sworn to secrecy until it was officially announced to the public. We couldn’t tell our family that we can’t buy Christmas gifts this year because we will soon be in a much different situation. I was angry, so angry, and it has been really hard to keep that in check. I am supposed to be strong, especially when it comes to supporting and loving my family, but maybe that’s why I’m having such a hard time. I am protective of my family, and this situation makes my inner momma grisly bear want to come out and show her teeth and claws. But that won’t help anything. Orders have come down from way up on high, well as far as the Earth plane can go in Michigan, and that’s about all I can say about that.
My anger will do no good; it will change nothing and will only hinder growth for the future. This isn’t exactly a surprise. You see, I “saw” this months ago, although it made no sense that this would happen. My husband’s company had just paid a lot of money to upgrade equipment … why would they go under? I didn’t know why he was going to lose his job at the time. I just knew things were going to change drastically with his work. I’d been preparing, but we were not quite ready for this.
My husband was a t.v. producer for a local non-profit company that was supported by the cable industry. There are not really many t.v. jobs available in Michigan, so we had two options … 1. Move out of state and leave behind our family, including my very ill mother-in-law … or 2. Go full-time with his web design business. We chose option 2.
As of January 1st, my husband and web designer will be going full-time with what has been a part-time business for a few years now. He is my web designer and has created sites for several others, but he’s always shied away from big projects due to lack of time. My son said to him, “You know, Dad, I think your job has been holding you back.” He is probably very right about that, too. It’s scary, though, to make such a leap.
As we are letting go of our anger and frustration, we are seeing possibilities. A few people have already contacted my husband about projects, and we’re also going to be taking over a Tarot website and making it more like my site. We will probably redo my site eventually as well, and we do plan on doing more with my site.
My point here is that I have learned something very valuable, something I’ve known for a long time of course, but it’s so much harder to put it into action with something that is such a big deal … Holding onto anger only holds you back. I’m still struggling with that a bit; it’s still a pretty fresh wound. I can’t even talk about all that I am angry about, but it doesn’t matter. The job, the anger, it’s all an illusion. Heaven is simply using this as a tool to bring my family into the next phase of our lives.
I find it funny that all of us are coming out of 9 years … the year of completion and endings (according to Numerology), and we are all entering into 1 years … new beginnings. There is definitely change on the horizon, with new and wonderful opportunities ahead. Letting go of the past will help us to be open to what’s ahead. I may still be a bit upset because this hurts my family, especially since we will no longer have health insurance, but it’s important to consider the possibility that maybe this is something we will look back on as a great thing … someday.
Maybe we will consider this time the birth of our true lives, the beginning to walking our true destined path. We are letting go of everything that has held us down and creating our own future. We could move out of state and work for someone else, somewhere else, but we can’t help but see the obvious connections here. Making our own future and our own family security seems like a far better plan than spending years creating that future for someone else and then being cast away when they’re done with us.
Knowing there are many others out there with similar struggles right now, please know that you are not alone. Your angels and guides surround you. Ask for their help and guidance, and ask them to help you forgive and let go so that you too can move forward and onward.
And remember what you do have as gratitude can manifest some amazing miracles. I know I’m lucky to have a wonderful husband whom I love dearly, and I have an incredible little boy who I know will be sleeping safely in his bed this evening. These are things I am grateful for every day. Though I know my love for them is what makes me frustrated with this current situation, that same love gives me hope for the future and endless gratitude for all the possibilities that lie ahead.
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